I've been busy. Busy chasing the monsters away. Dark thoughts, terrible people, pinning hope on these unreliable people and prioritising my life. Priority 1 = ME, a first for me. From when i can recall every decision I made independently involved giving other the top priority, be it family friends acquaintances. People are important in our lives and to me every person i know was important to me because they were a part of my life. And the way I saw it "me" came a pitiful last.
Soo to weed out the negatives and get ride of the baggage, I decided to spend the Christmas Holidays and New years eve alone! Yep i was all alone in my matchbox size studio apartment cooking whatever i fancied, watching what i like on TV and reading books that I wanted to read without having to explain my choice in food, TV programme or book to any damn one! While i was basking in the glory of the big achievement of doing my own thing, i got updates from friends many partying in the most happening place freezing their butt's off in Scotland or by the Thames to watch the fireworks. While they gulp down booze to keep themselves from freezing, i enjoyed some "me time". I am not an introvert and have always had parties at my place or made sure i am with friends especially for New Year's Eve! Something about me and New years Eve I guess, I always remembered it to be an occasion to spend with loved ones, could be that the earliest memory i have is of four of us and close friends huddles around barbecue on the cold night of new years eve in Dubai every year. and this was our yearly thing to do... it did rub off on me so new year according to me is well spent doing what you want to do.
So i broke the tradition of being surrounded by a lot of people and stayed home! Yay! well i didn't exactly feel the same when i went to bed at 9pm :D but was woken up by a couple of calls that made up for the fact that i was in the end alone :)
Jan was uneventful, Feb saw me wear a diamond solitaire on my left hand ring finger and October will see me wearing a wedding band on the same finger and i am freaking out! damn! I am having trouble dealing with a set of "relatives" as is who wants a second set and "in-law" ughhh! breath innnnnn.... breathe outttt!!! phew!
That's about it for now, hoping to update this blog more often and put me out there for you guys to judge :P
ohh ohh! Watched Karthik calling Karthik! hmm let me summarise, 1st half was painful unconvincing and because of a friend who didn't want to leave the cinema i watched the second half which was tolerable but in the end it was a movie which didn't convince me in any aspect, pretty pointless if a movie cant get you involved!
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