2012

 

London Olympics 2012

Tonight we go to cheer the athletes and see what all the fuss is about, I am sooo looking forward to it :)

The IMax experience

Listening to....

Shankar Tucker! Talented and brilliant in a very subtle way. I'm hooked to his music, not just his work with other singers but even the instrumental work of his is very intriguing.

I do have to thank the fact that I'm on facebook when I come across gems like this, i just chanced upon the artist  from a friends "like's" and looked him up and searched for his music. I was indifferent initially but i think it grew on me. I realise that most of the time i do get hooked on to music which I never like at the first go but then it grabs a hold of me and I just cant get enough. Loved Agam too and have been listening to rosebowlchannel music on youtube. I admit in most cases I do not even understand the language but when you can feel the music across the language barrier you know you have found some really great work.

http://soundcloud.com/shankartucker/sets/recent-tracks/

http://youtu.be/ipNB-ijxHiI

http://youtu.be/m3ZyU98N3Fk

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3 years and 3 incidents that changed me to a different person, in a good way or in a bad way, I do not know any more. Engaged, Married, Lost my Dad to the end of my short lived Marriage. So many incidents a lot of downs with hardly any up's if I may say so. What makes me get up in the mornings from a cold empty bed, cook a breakfast for 1 and shut my apartment door to an empty house into the rat race in the city I honestly don't know!

Is it resilience or just plain fear of not living up to my colleagues expectations? People who I spend 8 waking hours 5 days a week with? People who wouldn't even realise that I am not at my desk, if their work didn't involve waiting on an email from me? What is this undying urge to please everyone I know or even just plain acquaintances? Is it who I am or just who I turned out to be? a person who clings at straws! If its an intrinsic part of who I am, is it even possible to be a more confident and positive person who believes in who she is?

Who am "I" ? What do "I" like to do? What would I do if I had all the freedom, security and money in the world? Wont I still try to please people who don't care a hoot? I think I would still grovel.. This is me acknowledging that, this is me promising ill keep myself first. Its cost me a lot of loved ones in the recent past since they are used to me being this submissive person and they would rather not have me at all if I don't bide by their rules. Not sure if I am seeing their true colours or showing them mine.. either ways survival in the bad bad world is not a choice, its a necessity.

Chi