Faces...

i'm surrounded by faces...
some familiar... some strange
i smile at them... smile with all i can
do they see me..do they notice?
do they know me? or am i jus another face to them...
is there someone i long to see...
is there anyone i would look twice at without any effort
when will this plastic smile turn real?
when will i come to a place where i can be me...
jus me....

A Moment....

Every moment captured… is every moment cherished…
Play when you can… laugh when you can…
Bcoz a moment doesn’t last too long ......

Random("Musings")

Whats more difficult to open up or let go?to sheild urself from everyone and everythin and be alone
or open up and risk losing it all n have ur heart ripped out

Why is the inevitable so difficult to absorb?

a simple wish is all i had
a wish to be loved and love in turn

now wats love?
an understanding, a passion or a compromise?

i dont understand the meaning of "love", i dont understand the meaning of "hurt" i dont remember being "happy" nor being "sad"
am i still alive or a living dead?

Memories....
A word which describes a time which as the days go by fades
finally nuthin remains except a faint memory of it being a fun time!

Confession...

"I cant be a part of ur life always... ppl come n go...i havent gone yet but am far away... this flute is for me to be a part ur small little world... where its jus u, ur flute n the music u play and i hope i can get a tiny place in that world of urs... plz keep playing... not for me.. but for urself and our friendship.... wish i can listen to u one day:'("

Puzzle...

We are but pieces from a jigsaw puzzle
We fit do perfectly but there is just one trouble

We were past of two different puzzles
puzzles already set long ago

you are on your way to complete your set
to fill the gap in the life of your loved ones

I am waiting and will wait
one day to be a part of a picture that
I too can fill and complete....

Punished...

From the dark and heavy shackles in the dungeons to the cool breeze under the sun....
Thanks for bringing me here before i got enveloped by the darkness of gloom...

I know i hurt u... my eyes are not used to the light that you brought me to...
I shoudn't have fought it... shouldn't have fought you..

I am a stranger to myself now...
I was eaten up by the dark...

Need your help to stand up...
To help me believe in me again...

Time Up!!

every journey has to end
and its abt time to say good bye...

i know not where i am ofto next
i know not wats in store...

showers come n showers go
but its the rainbow tat holds us spellbound...

i know not if i will come across such a beautiful rainbow again
for i know not if i wud notice any more showers or rainbows in sight...

i am turning blind...
blind to anythin nice..

i have been living thru all the journeys so far
but its diff.... diff to feel truly alive...

Bliss

And I’d give up forever to touch you
Bcoz I know that you feel me somehow...

You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now...

Sooner or later its over
and i want to be with u tonight...

And I don’t want the world to see me
Bcoz I don’t think that they’d understand

When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am...

Lyrics from the song Iris by Goo Goo Dolls

Beats me...

How is that the more we fight while sinking into quicksand the more we get sucked in....

Why is that the stronger u r against the wave the more you it destroys you....

Is that all there is to it? Fight till self destruction?? Or give and drown to oblivion?

Where is the hope? Is it something made up jus to fool ourselves into an illusion that we have the power to change the route of life?

Are we jus puppets, puppets made to believe that we can control matters in life?

Do we really have the ability to change what fate or destiny has go in store for us?

If this is life.... What would be death?

a little giftbox... somethin called life?

a tiny little box...
wrapped so tight....
with a cute ribbon bow...
that throw a strange light...

im scared to open it...
im scared to watch...
jus dont want to let it...
lie there in de dark...

i gather up the courage...
to open up the gift...
the gift of love my love proclaimed...

i still live in fear...
i still live in dread...
of a fear of losing everythin i ever possessed ...

I kneel…

I kneel…

A walk into the silence… a walk into penance… a long walk to to the altar to be close to the cross
A silence so deafening it hurt… and a vision so perfect which I longed to see… to be a part of …
As I move, move closer to the cross something unusual caught my eye… a person a figure a man crouched sitting at a dingy corner… away from the light to hide himself to hide something he tried to hide from himself… i thought i saw a tear not just a tear but a few… … a face wrinkled by sadness a face that told a thousand stories… a face that has seen life seen the world… seen it all… with his eyes closed… his face told stories of life… a life he struggled to live…

I move away not to disturb him… I move away to hide myself… I move away to learn from him… to know what going thru life means… then I turn to the end and I feel something… a feeling of gratitude… thankfulness or is it a feeling of emptiness… I did not have a tear to spare nor a smile nor a second from my so called life, a life I'm thankful for?

I look back at the man in the corner, he gets up and walks around his eyes on the altar… his face devoid of expression he walks as if by a force unknown to him… he goes close to him kneels down and brings his hand together in solemn respect… I hear a whimper a slight whimper…and I see another tear roll down his cheek…his eyes closed shut, I wish I cud too… but no… a few moments and I realise life is not easy… my life is not life…

I stood transfixed as if lost …lost in time… and I kneel down… to life… I kneel down to him and everythin around me…
I kneel in reverence…I kneel in penance… I kneel to something I never experienced… I kneel down to Life…